Three weddings and my funeral.

I have been to 3 weddings this summer. I have seen my younger brother married off, a friend from college and later today, a cousin. And at each of them I have slowly been growing more unhappy with my un-marriedness.

I have had friends and family both have noted the fact that marriage is a lot of work; it's not all kisses and smiles.

I get that.

I have had relationships in my past where the last thing I want to do is love the person standing in front of me. I have been so in love with a person to where I thought I could have stood in front of a bullet for them.

I get it. It's work. It's pain. It's sacrifice. It's compromise. But most importantly, it's love. In all its hideous beauty.

Perhaps I just want someone to be with. Yet, I don't. I want someone to wake up to every morning. Someone who loves me for me, but desires me to become something more. A person with whom I can share my highest highs and my lowest lows.

All that crap.

Tally ho!!!

So last night I drove to Ridgway. About 20 miles from Montrose. It's a short jaunt. I drove there to visit my brother and his newly betrothed wife, Annie. Annie was at work for most of the evening, so Justin and I had dinner and watched a movie. It was good and different seeing him.

It's weird seeing my brother in this new light. I realize nothing has changed, save for the ring on his finger. I can't begin to fathom what it must be like to have a person in your life nearly 24/7, but it's an adjustment for family too. I have a sister. My little bro doesn't live in the same house anymore. He has a new place of his own (which is actually a first for him anyways) and a new life to boot.

I am so proud and happy for my new brother and sister-in-law. They look so happy together and have been even before the marriage. They are the kind of couple you root for. They are the ones you know are going to last. And I know Justin. He's not a quitter. Stubborn as the day he was born, the last thing he would allow is an ending to his marriage. Annie is the same as well, only sweeter and less rough around the edges.

Here's to a new life Justin and Annie.